Yay..!!! XDDDD

Alhamdulillah, At last I have become 20 years
old..Mwahahahahahahaha...

It seems like God heard and like what said to me in his comment..My birthday party was a REAL blast!!...

Well, for a student, it really cost me a lot..I used up almost (or might as well more than) half of my monthly cash..I hope my parents not gonna be mad for this..

Above all stuff, it was really nice..At last after almost a year, everyone was busy with their own work, assignments and exams, we can hang out together again just like after we just came here..It really brings back memories of old times (cmon..Its just about a year ago..lolz)

But the best thing was, that night, I felt like I was one of them..

All these days, Ive been always isolated...being far from my friends..Mybe..it was just me..Or maybe its because Im not really normal if to be compared to the other guys..I just have to admit that Im really kinda weird guy..

But that night, It was diffrent..It was kinda shock though..since they really treat me like one of em..But I was really happy and greatful..

Guess, the line of diffrence can be crossed anyway ...


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Hey, I got presents...

wow..I never thought that they are gonna give me presents..

Its really rare for me to get presents for my birthday..and Im sure that these guys dont really have any idea what to give me..but Im glad they gave me some useful stuffs..I really appriciate it..XDDD..

I got myself a mug!!

Clearly, none of the presents dont have anything to do with my intrests..Which make me thinks that these guys dont really understand me that much..but who cares about that?? those are sincere presents ryt???

So I'll keep it....until forever..XDDDD

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Talking about diffrences, I had some fight with my senior that actually lives in the same house with me... He just got married about a few months ago and he is really older than us (me and my other housemates)..Now, the problem is...he always gets angry easily..and he usually have a problem with getting along with me...since I do some problems..(yes..I am really clumsy with things..and keep forgetting what was I supposed to do..And also sensitive with cold weather that makes me hard to wake up in the morning in this cold winter...For those who never taste winter, Im tellin ya, Its really damn cold)while he is absolutely opposite from me...so I aways get scolded...or at least get mocked...I hate it..

I appreciate the help and the advice..But I dont like being mocked or being harshly critiqued just because Im diffrent or cant do stuffs as good as someone else does..I am weak...and I do admit that..but being harshly critiqued, cmon, no one in this world likes it..Dont treat me like Im just good as you are...

Coz we are born diffrently..None of us are destined to be same...If everyone can do things alone, then none of us will helping each other...there's no need to concern about others since we are all the same..

And I never believe in anyone who said everyone one of us are physically the same..

Uhhh..Sometimes i just hate older people..They always think that they are sooooo right and the youngsters have to always hear what they say and do as they tell us to do..

If being old and matured is just about being egoistic, then I'll rather be unmatured forever...

above all stuff, I dont want to keep any grudges with anyone ..besides, people dont get critiqued either harshly or nicely if one does'nt do anything wrong...so I wanna forget about it..and besides, he'll leave the house after this year...so

I'll be a little more paitent..haha

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I spit some lovely lies of love to a girl...

And she actually ate it..

Now Im running away..And I hope I dont see her again...

Well..I never met her in person...And she is in malaysia, while Im here 8 hours with an aeroplane from there....

We met in Friendster..and I think I'll delete that useless account...

I hope Im doing the right thing...Since vanishing into nowhere might as well be a good ending...

Coz, when I think back, for me now, there are nothing more important than my dreams to be a real manga artist...

If a relationship will be stopping me from my dreams, I rather put it away...

By the way, I dont love her..I just cant control myself just because she is cute...

Well, cute alone Isnt my type...I want a gurl like
Ciel...Lovely, cute, and clever and will never ask or mock me because I love manganime..!!XDDDD

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Even so, I got really lazy lately, skipping class,sleeping too much, playing games..I didnt even draw much..

Im working a collab with (go and have a look at her drawing..she's awesome for a 15 years old girl).Im CGing one of her arts now..But Im really lazy to do it..Its already weeks since Ive started it but its still not finished yet..

And Im also working a Leviathan re-design..but it doesnt seem like its a good one...Im too lazy to complete it..

I also dont read books as much as I did..

Is it because of the winter?? If it is, I pray to God that the winter will end soon...

I think thats all...Jaa na..XDDD


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I dont know why should I say this but....

to

You guys been really helpful...I just love you guys...

especially to ..

Your nose is mine..mwahahahahahahaha

Smell you guys later...

Jaa na...